So, I have been in a severe "high" for a few weeks now. It occasionally dips, but this time it's been very persistent. My question is, is it weird to feel suicidal, or have severely depressing thoughts during these phases? I have had them for a very very long time (highs/lows) and it's not new. But it leaves me confused as to why i can be so energetic, talkative, alert, and some times "happy" yet i still feel like ending it. Or how i can have such sad thoughts, yet i laugh, or get mad rather than depressed. I'm mainly wondering if this is "normal" in such an elevated state. If anyone knows.