ive been wit my bf for about 5 yrs n hes a great bf:marriage: but wenever we fight hes heartless. he'll say rele mean things that im self concious about. n im honestly a jealous person n ive caught him watchin porn after he PROMISED me (more than once) that hed stop. i dont think he does anymore after the last time when i blew up at him n slapped him :whack:, but i still cant get over it. it replays in my mind alot n makes me think of sum other things hes done in the past that i dont even wanna think about. n he never ever wants to try to talk it out, he instead makes me feel like s*** for doubtin him n bringin it up. i think talkin about it will make me feel better but he wont. im scared to even try to bring any problems up cuz he gets rele mad about it n all i wanna do is feel better. hed rather let me cry than try to make me feel better. i think thats selfish n it rele hurts me. ive cut myself b4 over fights wit him n problems wit my family n he doesnt no about the last few times i did. he said hed leave me if i did it again. i no he cares but its just rele hard to get over certain things. i just rele needed to vent that out sumhow. n its not bad enough to where im gonna leave him so dont even suggest that :badger: