Slept a lot this morning. Felt ok, wondering whether to go for a walk again. Decided to wash hair instead so can go out tomorrow. Felt good about that. A small thing but sensible. Thinking about what I need to do in town even about treating myself. Got some fish out of freezer to cook for supper. Then at some point wham. Paranoia. Everybody hates me, ignores me. Know I have problems but this was so sudden and extreme.