I dont even know what to say or write anymore. I feel emotionally exhausted. Ive been harming myself on and on and no one in this household is even noticing. I mean i try and hide it but then i get hurt when they dont notice. Idk wtf is wrong with me. Nothing makes sense anymore. I just want someone to hug me and let me cry without having to hold back noises because they might hear me. I just feel really tired of trying to be okay when im not.