Sad to be here. Trying to find support.
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Hi, I also arrived here after a suicide in the family (as opposed to being here because I am suicidal myself) so I can somewhat relate to how you're feeling. However, my relative was my mother and frankly I don't think that's got as much impact as it would if it were my son. He's my world and I can't imagine losing him so I imagine you're feeling so many things right now and just trying to get frmo one day to the next. I know how those days play out - the "what if's" and "why's" that never end. Keep posting okay? You might find that being here gives you some peace you don't expect.
It’s a tough place suicide, you feel you want to get better but the darkness can overcomthose e same thoughts. The emptiness loneliness vulnerability of one mind playing tricks. To commit suicide means you are at your lowest, a place very few goes, deep dark hole and one you want rid of, only way it this route. Freedom and Peace. I am truly sorry for your loss, losing a child to suicide must be unbelievably hard. What could I have done, what could I’ve seen, what did I miss. It’s the ones with the smile/happy face you must watch out for. Keep going
I know nothing I can say will be worth a damn compared to your loss so Ill just say that I'm sorry, as for what you should write... I dont think you should write anything. I don't think there is any right answer for any part of this, all you can do is try to process and survive, and for our part here, if that means finding comfort in shared pain, we are here to share, if it means finding distraction and a safe haven, we have sections for that too, and if that means just telling us about your son, I'm sure there are people here who will listen.