Sad...

[IDontWantToDie]

Im tired of being poor and the thought that all my life will be like this... makes me want to leave life, makes me want to give up... but there is no other option but to keep living, always wearing the same clothes, go only to work, be exhausted every day, live with people giving me dirty looks because i look "unkept", pretend im going on lunch brakes by the end of the month so that no one would know i have nothing to eat that day, travel no where, see nothing, live on the same street all my life, never publish my book, never write any songs, no art anymore there is just no time or energy... be depressed and die some day unhappy.
I hate everything... and yeah, it could be worse, that does not make a life of poverty enjoyable.

 

[may71]

Hugs @IDontWantToDie

I'm sorry that it's like that.

pretend im going on lunch brakes

There may be some free sources of food. I could try to make some suggestions if you'd like.

Maybe you could get to a better place. It usually takes a good plan to get there, but maybe it's something you could do.

More hugs

 

[IDontWantToDie]

Hugs @IDontWantToDie

I'm sorry that it's like that.


There may be some free sources of food. I could try to make some suggestions if you'd like.

Maybe you could get to a better place. It usually takes a good plan to get there, but maybe it's something you could do.

More hugs

Well, its not like we have completeley nothing to eat, its more like... we dont have any money of our own. We always borrow and then give our "pay checks" away as soon as we get them. Then we borrow again. But were running out of options. The prices are growing and all... and, this is just not a life i want to live. Im angry that people have to live like this, im angry that, even if we have ideas how to make money, the system is just fucking everything up. Im angry because every time we think that things will get better some unexpected stuff comes up and we lose more money.
Im just tired tonight.
Thank you for being here

 

[Holding my breath]

Hope you get some rest and feel stronger tomorrow. So sorry life is so hard. Xx

 

[may71]

Im angry that people have to live like this

The system sucks. I guess it could suck worse, but it still sucks.

Well, its not like we have completeley nothing to eat

You still might be eligible for some food assistance.

Thank you for being here

You're welcome!

 

[GetOutOfMyMind]

Well, its not like we have completeley nothing to eat, its more like... we dont have any money of our own. We always borrow and then give our "pay checks" away as soon as we get them. Then we borrow again. But were running out of options. The prices are growing and all... and, this is just not a life i want to live. Im angry that people have to live like this, im angry that, even if we have ideas how to make money, the system is just fucking everything up. Im angry because every time we think that things will get better some unexpected stuff comes up and we lose more money.
Im just tired tonight.
Thank you for being here

i admit the system does suck and most of us are living paycheck to paycheck. i guess all we could do is try to live our best life, or try and find a better paying job. hope things get better for you

 

[Nesschen]

I feel sorry for you and I hope you will not get angry with me....but: why can't you change your life? Is there a reason? I cannot change my chronic everyday (even every minute) strong pain. Even doctors are telling me since years that my pain cannot be treated I am still trying. What is it that helds you back?

 

[Winslow]

Im tired of being poor and the thought that all my life will be like this... makes me want to leave life, makes me want to give up... but there is no other option but to keep living, always wearing the same clothes, go only to work, be exhausted every day, live with people giving me dirty looks because i look "unkept", pretend im going on lunch brakes by the end of the month so that no one would know i have nothing to eat that day, travel no where, see nothing, live on the same street all my life, never publish my book, never write any songs, no art anymore there is just no time or energy... be depressed and die some day unhappy.
I hate everything... and yeah, it could be worse, that does not make a life of poverty enjoyable.

The impression I get from your post is that your daily routine is boring drudgery. What could help you is if you offset that feeling of monotony by practicing Zen meditation. Those who reside at a monastery, meditate and do the same routine everyday but they don't get bored at all. By doing that, your daily work won't feel monotonous to you.

 

[HamsterB0Y]

Hi! @IDontWantToDie

I like what you wrote, although its not about happiness or joy but something I can relate to. At the end of the day, you technically published something yk and I enjoy reading it!
I didn't enjoy too much (you know what I mean)
I do not believe we should be bothered of others looking down on us for "unkept" being born as poor is not our fault and those who look down on us are bad cuz they didn't go through what we have gone through. I swear, its the sympathy that lacks not the money. I must agree with you when you said "but there is no other option but to keep living" because when there is life, there is hope