I feel like people actively ignore me and when there not there usually oppressing or putting me down in one form or the other. I feel like nobody loves me and its not algerbra! I have no family i have no friends, i have no one except my own worst enemy! I feel like people want to sweep me under the carpet. I want to sweep me under the carpet actually i want fear far worse than that! I feel like ive had my chances of making a life for myself and that i have failed disastrously and deserve exactly what i am now experiencing as what can only be described as Hell. I see people living life and feel like an alien incapable of integrating. Everything i touch seems to turn to shit and generally fuck up anything that may be worth living for. Im terrified of life, people,myself,God.I feel like if i dont change my life and make something of my life .i will be going to hell ! Which from what ive heard is meant to be 1 million times worse than this Lol . I mean who really wants to hear my negative, toxic, self pityful truth that has become a constant background hounding every fiber of my being?