I take 40 mg citalopram daily been on the for approx 3 years. I also take femeodene oral pill contraceptive. Went docs today finally managed to drag myself out of bed after 6 days. I told gp ibwas feeling sucidal. She upped my dose but also told me to discontinue the pill as it csn really lower the mood. I have been on the oill for 5 years. I just read up on the risks with the pill and depression. Anyone else experience d this. My cycle will unleash a monthly hormonal hell that I have not missed. I want to kill myself as it is. I am so fed up with this. I jusy esnt to wake up without wanting to die or cry my eyes out. I was ecen crying making myself a cup of tea earlier. Any hey if anyone hss simulst experience s of the oill an f iys effect bon yiur depression please let me know. Thanks again.