I feel like no one truly understands how I feel not even my own family and I have about had it. I have no friends no job no car 28 still live with my parents because I saved up to move out but decided with the good heart I have to give it to my parents because they were in a tough situation now I have no money. Tired of getting online seeing my friends being successful and having girlfriends and I've been single pretty much throughout my life. Tired of getting bullied and letting people talk to me any kind of way and I am always the one to walk away to avoid conflict. Before all this I was ok with my life but then shit happens and I'm extremely lonely and I've never been in this position before so I'm going crazy! I even think about suicide. I also try to be nice and friendly to everyone and I get bashed down I can't take it anymore. If anyone has any advice or help with this severe depression I will thank you because I really am thinking about getting help and I've dealt with this depression all my life it's just getting worse.