Hello Everyone:
It is heartening to find this place and all of you folks. I would have written earlier, but our iMAC locked itself down last week and had to go to the "Genius Bar." Since finding this site just a few days ago, "tuning" in and participating in this forum has never been far from my mind. I am having certain difficulties dealing with life these days. Money woes are seriously exacerbating my downward spiralling state-of-mind. Historically, before I even reached the double digits, age wise, I was already having suicidal thoughts. I come from a very unhappy, messed up "family." Lately, thoughts of suicide are my default response to what I regard and/or experience as overwhelming stress or deep despair. I repeatedly pull myself up from such notions (or at least don't act upon them) as I am very cognizant of the pain I would cause to my loved ones'. I am noted for being a compassionate person, someone with the ability to truly listen to others. Honouring the stories, the lives of other people is perennially important to me, whatever the venue. I am glad to be here. In case anyone responds to this message within the next few minutes, I may have to sign off very soon, but will reply as soon as I once again have some privacy and time to myself. Thank you for your interest in listening to what I have to say.
It is heartening to find this place and all of you folks. I would have written earlier, but our iMAC locked itself down last week and had to go to the "Genius Bar." Since finding this site just a few days ago, "tuning" in and participating in this forum has never been far from my mind. I am having certain difficulties dealing with life these days. Money woes are seriously exacerbating my downward spiralling state-of-mind. Historically, before I even reached the double digits, age wise, I was already having suicidal thoughts. I come from a very unhappy, messed up "family." Lately, thoughts of suicide are my default response to what I regard and/or experience as overwhelming stress or deep despair. I repeatedly pull myself up from such notions (or at least don't act upon them) as I am very cognizant of the pain I would cause to my loved ones'. I am noted for being a compassionate person, someone with the ability to truly listen to others. Honouring the stories, the lives of other people is perennially important to me, whatever the venue. I am glad to be here. In case anyone responds to this message within the next few minutes, I may have to sign off very soon, but will reply as soon as I once again have some privacy and time to myself. Thank you for your interest in listening to what I have to say.
