I feel like I'm not able to communicate what I want to. Coupled with a thread I recently posted about either continuing to get myself hurt or hurting others I just don't seem to be able to find that "balance". Overthinking/over-analytical can be said of me, but right now I am struggling to avoid being numb. A lot of previous progress that I had been making seems to have flipped into a slide backwards and I do not understand how or why. Just feels like the boat I've been keeping just above the surface of water has had extra weight added and is unable to cope. But where it's all come from - I have no idea. So I don't want to go "crying wolf" to a doctor to find it's nothing, purely because I don't know what may have started it. Sorry for being a pain.