I am sorry for making another thread here. Guess you probably must be tired of me now. All those threads i created are all about i bit different problems i am having, but all are actually connected together. This time this thread is more connected to this one: http://www.suicideforum.com/showthread.php?136256-I-can-t-live-without-love-anymore And in this thread i wanna say, that since i fell in love with that girl i am talking about in the mentioned thread, my depressions doubled, maybe tripled. Always since around 3pm to around 7:30pm, my depressions are so strong. I am hurting so bad now. I feel weird kind of sweat on my body, even though it's just a feeling. And i am breathing fast and kinda shaking. I know what you will probably say. You will tell me to go to doctor and get some treatment. Well, i will probably do that. I will probably start taking some meds, even though i am so scared of them. I tried it once before and my depressions was much stronger. I know it's side effect, that it takes for the mad to start working and that until it will start working, you may feel worse. But i couldn't overcome that. It was too much. Hope i'll hit some med that doesn't have so strong side effects. I am worried guys. I am so worried about myself. Always when i feel this bad, it forces me to write to that girl. And i know i shouldn't bother her so much with that. It always forces me to write to a person that i currently like/love most. And it's extremely hard not to write her. I don't know what to do. It hurts extremely.