So what now?

Used up every idea I could think of for getting better. Exhausted all treatment options. Can't try any more meds, even new ones that come out. Just don't have the willpower or the intelligence to do college or a job with more hours and better pay than what I have now. No interests or passions to pursue. Use what little energy I have to exercise at least every other day despite my bad back. Therapy still ongoing, still no progress, still don't understand what it's supposed to accomplish. Volunteer, but hate it. I feel lonelier at social groups than by my lonesome.

 

I feel exactly the same way. There is no what now. Just is, in my opinion. I keep fooling myself life with get better, taking advice to think positive, etc, etc, but does it ever? No. So there is no what now, just whatever.