I have been suffering from social anxiety which seems to get worse over a year's time. I purposely isolate because I feel so uncomfortable hanging around with anyone. I don't make an effort to make friends with acquaintances because I don't feel I have anything to share with them. Yes, I'm lonely, but I'd rather choose to be alone than to be involved with another's life and their life stories that they tell. My neighbors don't reach out to me anymore, even if I tried to text them once in a while to see if they would be caring enough to keep tabs on me but they don't. I seek refuge in my little apartment, avoiding as much social contact as possible. It's ironic that I don't want any social interaction, but then I wish they would reach out to me. I know I contradict myself and that's my struggle with social anxiety.