Some context: I've had a place to live for about a month now, before that I was homeless and staying at a psych ward in a hospital. Only last month I was approved for social assistance. People make me nervous and it takes courage to go outside for any reason. The story: I was walking to a dollar store. Beside the entrance there was a lady sitting on a bench. She asked me if I could spare any change. I told her sorry, no, I didn't have any on me. Then she asked if I could go with her to buy her some food. Again I said I'm sorry, then kept walking to the door and she yelled out at me "But you're going to the dollar store!" so I yelled back "I'm poor myself!" and she replied "I'm poor too!" I went inside to shop, and when I came back out she was still there. I started crying on the walk back to my apartment. Obviously I'm not mad at her, but the whole exchange definitely made my self-hatred flare up, and now I'm just trying to calm down again. I can't study when I'm like this.