Some thoughts

[Dani24]

I had a lot of thoughts in my mind last night and could not sleep. I don’t see the point in going forward anymore. I remember back in high school, I thought after I graduated I would just end my life. I never told anyone about it before. I never felt like I fit in anymore and still don’t. All throughout school, I was a loner, introverted and quiet. I have struggled to make friends. I have grown to like those things about me, but it can be hard at times and frustrating. Anyways, I didn’t have a plan to actually do anything after I graduated high school, it was just a thought I had and I knew my life wasn’t going to get much better. I wanted to stay on earth for my brother, my mom and my kitties. I don’t regret not going through with ending it. Now, I feel lost even more than before. I don’t know where I fit into this world anymore. It’s not going to get better for me because it hasn‘t. I am struggling to find work. I still struggle to make friends. I always thought as I get older it would be easier, but nothing is earlier as we get older. I kinda just wanted to put my thought down as I struggle to fall asleep.

 

[may71]

It’s not going to get better for me because it hasn‘t.

Lots of people have gotten better who never expected to get better. It doesn't always happen, but it happens sometimes.

Sending hugs if you would like hugs