Hi, My name is J and I'm male. (rather not give out my real name, If it's ok ) I'm from the UK, I'm 21 and I was diagnosed with depression around Summer 2011. I've always been a nervous person, I used to be terrified of going to school without knowing why (sounds a bit stupid, Right?). I sometimes used to bunk school (means not go, Do people in other countries say 'bunk school'?). Anyways, Since leaving school my life has spiraled downwards into what I am today. I have put on a bit of weight, I go months without stepping foot outside of the house (I'm what I would call semi-agoraphobic in that I can go out in the car with people but not get out of the car again until I'm home.) and I mainly sit in my room all day on the PC. I don't really have any friends (lost touch with what friends I did have in school) and that's basically my empty pathetic existence. My only dreams are silly, Pathetic unreachable ones (fame and money, That old chestnut Haha.) and to top it all off, I have a really low voice (I don't think it even ever broke.) which makes me feel sadder. My only real joys in life is football (soccer.) watching it or playing it on FIFA and I'm even starting to get fed up of that and I also love watching films, All genres except horror. I am depressed and that makes me have suicidal thoughts daily (but would NEVER act on them.) I'm not sure what I was hoping to achieve by posting this, But maybe I just need to get it all out. Kinda like a massive scream on top of a mountain, But instead doing it on an internet forum. Peace.