I don't date a lot, but there's something that I notice. There's only a few people that have liked me, and I liked them back, which resulted in dating. This usually happens when the other person likes me first. Cool, I have no problem with that. It is also pretty rare for me to have crushes, I just didn't really want it to get in my way, life is hard enough, right? Then suddenly I'm at this age and I have no one, and like I've trained myself to not get crushes easily, if that makes sense.
Something that I noticed is that, whenever I have crushes on people, they don't like me back, and I wish I was brave enough to make the first move or something like that, but I'm not, and I'm scared that I'll get hurt. Because when that happens, it will spiral, another waste of time. That also makes me sad. Then there are these people (not many, obviously) in real life mostly, that have shown interests in me, but I'm just not attracted to them. At some point I even tried to force myself to like someone, but I guess this feeling can't be forced. I don't want to be with someone I'm not attracted to, and I hope this doesn't come across as me being shallow, I tried to look at different angles, but things still don't change. Why does this happen to me? Why can't I have someone who likes me, and I can like them too, a match! Why is it so hard. I'm starting to think that love is just all about luck.
Something that I noticed is that, whenever I have crushes on people, they don't like me back, and I wish I was brave enough to make the first move or something like that, but I'm not, and I'm scared that I'll get hurt. Because when that happens, it will spiral, another waste of time. That also makes me sad. Then there are these people (not many, obviously) in real life mostly, that have shown interests in me, but I'm just not attracted to them. At some point I even tried to force myself to like someone, but I guess this feeling can't be forced. I don't want to be with someone I'm not attracted to, and I hope this doesn't come across as me being shallow, I tried to look at different angles, but things still don't change. Why does this happen to me? Why can't I have someone who likes me, and I can like them too, a match! Why is it so hard. I'm starting to think that love is just all about luck.
