Why is it so hard for me to tell my mom or someone that I need help? To be completely honest, I want to die more than anything, but obviously something is holding me back if I'm still here. I kind of think talking to a therapist might help, but I can't tell her. I have thought about it so many times. What if she doesn't understand or thinks I am overreacting? I have heard her make comments about depression and it doesn't seem like she is too understanding. I don't know what to do. It would be such a shock, because I have been keeping all of this a secret for years. Maybe it is best to just keep it to myself.