It's a shot in the dark, but I figured I'd try to find other stay at home parents here. I know most of us struggle with some form of mental illness, and I just feel like most people can't understand where I'm coming from. Most people see my life, and think I should be happy all the time. Even I feel like I should sometimes. But it's hard. I know most stay at home parents (especially moms) can relate to the stress I feel being the "nurturer" - the one who cooks, cleans, cares, raises, etc - but I just feel like very few of them understand where I'm coming from when I bring up my depression, my anxiety, my eating struggles. I was diagnosed with postpartum depression at my 6 week postpartum check up. I'm not sure if I technically have it or not, as I had depression before. I do feel my depression is different now, though. It's filled with intrusive thoughts now, that are characteristic of postpartum. I guess that's why they diagnosed me with it, maybe? I'm not sure. I just want to talk to someone who may understand, who may have postpartum depression, postpartum anxiety, postpartum OCD, or a pre-existing mental illness and children. Someone else who stays home all day, "holding the fort", and is afraid to talk about their problems with anyone for fear of being judged as a "terrible parent". I talk to my mom sometimes, and she understands, but it's been so long since she had babies or kids that she never knows what to say/what advice to give. So, maybe, if there's enough of us here we can just use this thread to vent our frustrations, let each other know we're not alone, and maybe make some chat buddies. I'm not sure if there is enough of us, but it can't hurt to try.