I sit her struggling with depression. I feel that I have let the most important people in my life down. Everything is hitting me at once and I don't know what to do. My wife loves me and tries to help. It is hard for me to let her know the depth of my mental pain. I play all of my mistakes over and over in my mind. All the bad decisions. I wish I could make these right but I can't and it tears at me. I am very confused right now and don't know what to do.