So for months I basically listened blindly to what my therapist said to me about my suicidal thoughts because it made me feel better, and I stopped feeling so suicidal. But now I am thinking more for myself and ending my life makes more sense to me than living.
Not gonna get into details because it will most likely just trigger me. But the jist is there are things I want to do in life that I can't. I dont want to live feeling the crushing weight of that inferiority. And the logic is clear to me but my therapist has told me I am making mistakes with my logic.
I get the feeling now that I had the right idea the whole time I guess. It feels so hopeless and lonely, that there's nothing to help me, you know? The weird thing is I think this is because my self esteem is growing, so now I don't want to settle in life.
Not gonna get into details because it will most likely just trigger me. But the jist is there are things I want to do in life that I can't. I dont want to live feeling the crushing weight of that inferiority. And the logic is clear to me but my therapist has told me I am making mistakes with my logic.
I get the feeling now that I had the right idea the whole time I guess. It feels so hopeless and lonely, that there's nothing to help me, you know? The weird thing is I think this is because my self esteem is growing, so now I don't want to settle in life.
