Suicidal Thoughts - Are you Feeling Suicidal Today?

[Sassy Cat]

Dealing with some difficult things right now. The person who is supposed to be the most supportive is the one who is the most hurtful to me. You are supposed to be able to trust your spouse, but I can't. It's not cheating. He is abusive emotionally and verbally. I've just basically given up. I don't see things getting better.

Sorry hun I know how hard it is dealing with a spouse like that.

 

[Claudia UK]

like me you'll probably never be pain free. you have to fight to get to get to a level of pain that you can live with. i'm at 4 out of 10 and I finally got there. of course it spikes higher but that's ok because spikes are temporary. find your number and fight with your doctor to reach it. you don't have to answer but did he prescribe any opioids to help with the pain?

Unfortunatly not Dodge. I currently get steroid injections but they only help for a while . As you said , you adapt yourself to the pain and you learn to live with it. I am 5 out of 10 at the moment and on colder, wetter days its even worse. I am currently doing a bit of research on CBD oil as it has been praised by fellow sufferers in a group on facebook.

 

[ClassicsFan]

i'm sorry i'm bad at pronouns I did the same thing to @ClassicShowsFan it took me a while to remember, just kick me in the ass if I forget. mike

Oh I remember that very well Mike.

 

[feather]

Yes

 

[MagickLynx]

Yes, today is hell. I realised i've spent large portions of my life not wanting to live, what's the point?

 

[1964dodge]

Yes

why, what's bothering you can you share with us? mike

 

[1964dodge]

Yes, today is hell. I realised i've spent large portions of my life not wanting to live, what's the point?

I know where you're coming from I understand I have to fight those thoughts a lot also. but life is worth living you have to survive and fight the bad times and cherish the good times. I hope you feel better soon, and you can talk to me anytime i'm here. mike

 

[MagickLynx]

I know where you're coming from I understand I have to fight those thoughts a lot also. but life is worth living you have to survive and fight the bad times and cherish the good times. I hope you feel better soon, and you can talk to me anytime i'm here. mike

Thanks Mike, i can't even act on it anyway becasue last time/s the fear just kicks in. It's hard not knowing if or when it'll get any better.

 

[MagickLynx]

I know where you're coming from I understand I have to fight those thoughts a lot also. but life is worth living you have to survive and fight the bad times and cherish the good times. I hope you feel better soon, and you can talk to me anytime i'm here. mike

 

[total eclipse]

yes

 

[total eclipse]

hsb tired of me saying i want to die well sorry but i do

 

[Jolene]

Yes. Life is not going to get better, on the contrary. I should have killed myself the first time I thought about it and I wouldn't have suffered the last two years. If I could, I'd do it right now

 

[Sunspots]

The last few weeks have been so hard again. I'm tired and worn down and I can't help thinking I've had my chances and let them go. I'm nearly 50, I don't know how much longer I can fight this.

 

[Nick]

The last few weeks have been so hard again. I'm tired and worn down and I can't help thinking I've had my chances and let them go. I'm nearly 50, I don't know how much longer I can fight this.

I know it's hard. God, don't I know. We got to keep fighting. Even when it seems like we're just fighting in a gigantic insane circle. Keeping fighting with me.

 

[1964dodge]

The last few weeks have been so hard again. I'm tired and worn down and I can't help thinking I've had my chances and let them go. I'm nearly 50, I don't know how much longer I can fight this.

you can keep fighting this and you still have a long time to get what you want you should have another 30 or 40 years left. you probably screwed up , missed opportunities etc. who cares that's in your past. look to improve your future instead. I know you're tired of fighting it wears all of us down but we will help hold you up, like you told me you can't give up. mike and some extra hugs

 

[VioletDawn]

It's too heavy. It hurts too much. It feels like my legs are made of lead and my mind is full up. A million dark thoughts clambering over each other, fighting their way to the surface in a never ending conveyor of horror.

 

[total eclipse]

yes

 

[Jolene]

Yes

 

[Pebble mouse]

Yes

 

[total eclipse]

just doesn't matter anymore