Suicidal Thoughts - Are you Feeling Suicidal Today?

[LumberJack]

I’m conflicted. I pretty much have a method in mind that would take relatively less complicated supplies and would probably not raise any eyebrows or involve transactions with shady people.

But I still have the moral and ethical objections, too. Looking inside, I can say that if my end would not affect anyone else, I would have no more hesitation. That scenario, however, is impossible.

I have this idea that if I could understand the true implications of suicide, it would be easier to resist the impulses. Right now, I can infer the consequences, but that only works inside my skull. My heart is where it hurts.

The weird thing is that when I feel better, I feel a little repelled by the notion of destroying a human body, including my own. I’m trying to hold on until that shift comes again.

 

[Oceanshore11]

Anger

 

[LumberJack]

I’m really stressed out from resisting my intrusive thoughts. I want to kms, but just disappear somehow so that nobody will find my body. It’s a silly fantasy, because I have read about people whose loved ones have disappeared without a trace, e.g., into the wilderness or due to natural disasters or man-made ones, that not finding their body is especially troubling and makes it nearly impossible to get closure. So that would also have the opposite effect of what I want.

But, the thoughts/impulses remain.

 

[Inastorm]

Im feeling quite calm about the idea, which i dont know is good or not.

I am also wondering if someone feels i should. Maybe thats what they meant by my words and actions.

Im starting to see that my options are limited.

 

[seabird]

not today. I'm a bit hyper and t f it usually keeps my mind from being as tortured by emotion.

 

[seabird]

Im feeling quite calm about the idea, which i dont know is good or not.

I am also wondering if someone feels i should. Maybe thats what they meant by my words and actions.

Im starting to see that my options are limited.

What do you mean someone feels you should.

That, if it is true, is extremely foul and they're communicating it to you is abuse, and literally a crime in every sense.

We all need and want you to stay around.

If you want to talk more about this you could write to me.

 

[Tracie-1984]

Post here if you are feeling suicidal today.

That way,other members will know who needs extra support today

I feel suicidal every single day because of the torture that comes with being the way I am.

 

[Inastorm]

What do you mean someone feels you should.

That, if it is true, is extremely foul and they're communicating it to you is abuse, and literally a crime in every sense.

We all need and want you to stay around.

If you want to talk more about this you could write to me.

Thanks - I was having some distorted thoughts this morning on the way into work and was feeling very low. I feel better this evening and felt better after doing the cafe this afternoon. Thanks for your kind words and support. I've got a therapy session tomorrow.

 

[seabird]

Glad to hear it. I guess I reacted sort of strongly @Inastorm. That's something I'm prone to do on my hyper days.

 

[Inastorm]

Glad to hear it. I guess I reacted sort of strongly @Inastorm. That's something I'm prone to do on my hyper days.

I really appreciated that you did, it meant a lot to me.

 

[LumberJack]

I would be dishonest to say I am not. I just feel useless and redundant from a career/professional standpoint. Nobody who can sign a paycheck particularly needs me - which implies I have no value at least economically.

 

[1964dodge]

it's starting to be a viable thought again. been not so great last 2 or 3 weeks at least. i should be safe

mike

 

[seabird]

We hope and want you to be safe @1964dodge. I'm sorry to read things have been not so good lately. I noticed you have not been here as much, but then again I've been troubled and maybe missed your posts. Let us know how you're doing. Summer can be a strangely trying time of year.

 

[seabird]

Post here if you are feeling suicidal today.

Not going to act, but I'm very down.

 

[SillyOldBear]

Of course.

 

[July_09]

I hate being human

 

[Inastorm]

Just struggling so much to see the point. My life doesnt mean or hold any value anymore. I feel so empty, i just want the pain to stop.

 

[SillyOldBear]

Very much so. So many difficulties. Insurmountable ones. Why does it have to be so difficult to end one's life? Survival instinct I guess. But the reasons to survive are getting less and less. I think the day will come when they won't work anymore.

 

[jess♡]

I am, I feel like what is the point in living? I am struggling badly, but I feel like a huge failure and a disappointment.

 

[seabird]

No. It's vague, and I don't know what exactly gave rise to this, but there's a positive anticipation.