Suicidal Thoughts - Are you Feeling Suicidal Today?

[Rhidia]

That is a feeling I know also. I wish things were better for yourself and others.

Thank you, all we can do is hope. Right now? I have terribly little...

 

[Rosia]

Post here if you are feeling suicidal today.

That way,other members will know who needs extra support today

Yes I am feeling like this don't want to live another day

 

[Beos]

I think its time. I'm tired of being in pain everyday and no one doing anything to help. I just need to pick a day

 

[1Lefty]

Yes I am feeling like this don't want to live another day

Hi @Rosia

Welcome to SF, it's a good place to be when things are bad

peace

 

[MarkEmidio]

Re: Are you feeling suicidal today?

Yes, I am feeling suicidal today. I even called in sick. I probably should have gone to work but I just could not do it today. I work with the public and just not feeling up to it. I feel like I am on the edge of a cliff and I am ready to jump.

If you do a public facing job despite your tendency toward suicidal feelings, then you are braver and stronger than you know. Perhaps these feelings are the manifestation of your inner turmoil, the darkness that wants to drag you down and the optimist in you struggling to reach the surface.

 

[may71]

Sending hugs to anyone who would like hugs

 

[seabird]

Yes I am feeling like this don't want to live another day

Welcome to Sf Rosia. I'm sorry you're feeling so down that you don't want another day of life. Many of us here understand that very well.

Suicide Forum's people make it a safe and supportive place to write.

I hope you stay around, and keep posting if you find it helps. Mostly, I hope you feel better.

- s

 

[puffymilk]

No

 

[Rhidia]

Sending hugs to anyone who would like hugs

Thank you, always need a hug. Feeling awful after no sleep because of a combination of heat and depression, I have several plans. It gets HARD sometimes not to act on them.

 

[LumberJack]

I want to end my life so much that I can taste it.

I am feeling like the sooner I die, the better! There are people who don’t want to see that, and lucky for me I can care about them in ways that I cannot, or at least don’t know how to, care about myself. I’m broken. I should be recycled. 😔

 

[AvidFan]

I want to end my life so much that I can taste it.

I am feeling like the sooner I die, the better! There are people who don’t want to see that, and lucky for me I can care about them in ways that I cannot, or at least don’t know how to, care about myself. I’m broken. I should be recycled. 😔

I'm so sorry ❤️

 

[SillyOldBear]

Of course. The sooner I die the better. I pray for God to take me every night. Someday He will listen and call me home. I would prefer that He call me, then that I act to end life myself.

 

[seabird]

Sending prayers asking for cessation of pain, and a balm and peace for and to you both @LumberJack & @SillyOldBear.

 

[seabird]

Not today.

 

[Always Hopeless]

My therapists said last session that if I start imagining what I want my life to be I will have hope again and maybe even reach it. My whole life I've only ever thought it was hopeless.

But, I feel like this is a last desperate chance. Nobody seems to understand what an impossible situation this is. There's no recovery at this point with the whole world against you and no laws that don't support you.

Everyone in my life wants me to stick around for them. I think when I'm gone they'll understand that I've been suffering and they should eventually feel relief that I'm not suffering anymore.

You can't ask a person to stick around and suffer just to make other people feel better. That's cruel. I'm almost at the point where I want to tell my attorney to forget it because it's a lost cause. At this point I don't care what I'm born to do because it's not supposed to be this hard and it's not worth the suffering.

 

[Always Hopeless]

I'm sorry this has happened. You're welcome to say more about this if you'd like to.

Sending hugs if you would like hugs

I graduated and became a doctor. Matched into residency on my first try. Did really well for a few months until I was assaulted. I reported the assault and hazing. They fired me and took my license because of the cptsd and depression. That's the short of it. Or the end of my story really. I've tried everything possible. There's no way to recover my life.

 

[Always Hopeless]

No income, no career, no future and almost all my babies are gone at this point. I don't see any reason to keep going. Just empty hopes and desperate pleas from people who want me to stick around and keep helping people but don't have a way for me to get there. Hopeless. I can't see any other way. I also have no more fight left in me. Tbh I'm SO tired. I want out of this.

 

[may71]

Did really well for a few months until I was assaulted.

That's horrible, I'm sorry this happened. I wish the criminal justice system worked better than it does. It's too easy for someone to get away with crimes like this.

 

[Lane]

No income, no career, no future and almost all my babies are gone at this point. I don't see any reason to keep going. Just empty hopes and desperate pleas from people who want me to stick around and keep helping people but don't have a way for me to get there. Hopeless. I can't see any other way. I also have no more fight left in me. Tbh I'm SO tired. I want out of this.

Thinking of you during this trying time. Sorry that life is so difficult right now. Please stay safe @Always Hopeless.

 

[Rhidia]

Yes, hopeless future and difficult past. Head just hurts all the time.