Suicidal

[Van C]

I am going through a huge amount of stress right now, forced to deal with a load of stressful situations which, has an ASD and ADHD sufferer, I am not equipped to deal with.
I'm not going to mention what is happening in my life but I am experiencing a huge amount of disillusionment and disappointment with the way my life has turned out. In the past year especially I seem to have had a constant barrage of bad things happening, almost non-stop. I've become very withdrawn, I have brain fog to the extent that I've become debilitated by it, the world around me feels unreal and I don't feel connected to it in any way. And I'm constantly having suicidal thoughts going through my head, I just haven't got the guts to carry it out. But I still feel like I want to be dead.

 

[may71]

Sorry that you're going through this Van.

I'm not going to mention what is happening in my life

Ok. If you change your mind, you're welcome to talk about that though.

 

[alice202]

Van C - sending you good thoughts

 

[Windhover]

but I am experiencing a huge amount of disillusionment and disappointment with the way my life has turned out.

Sorry to hear this, those are heavy and painful feelings to deal with especially as a person with ASD. My friend who's also ASD has a terrifically difficult time when emotions are strong, and sometimes there is a kind of dominoe effect. Just having family and friemds who understand helps a lot.

Do you have moments when you are free of experiencing the brain fog and disassociation? Are you taking care of yourself, physically, I mean? Do you have a pet, @Van C ?

When you are here, you're not alone.

hug