I lost my sister long ago
Memories of her are but old
And when she passed my heart broke turned frozen cold
Happiness lost beneath the snow no peace to hold
Buried I tried to reach for hope
And when I did my hand came back old
Crippled and mangled like a noose
Around her neck that strangles
I became a stranger mind lost in its own
Empty barren and alone
Moans of pain washed down by bitter woes
Dumbfounded to what ensues
Lost I have no purpose, no pursuit
And I’m confused, I don’t know what to do
Because this grief, this pain it just consumes
Till you’re separated from the world in a locked room
You hope for change to come soon but it’s not safe to presume
Cause things just don’t happen-no
in this world you reap what you sow
if I could go back I would just want you to know
that I’m your bro and I’d be there for you no matter the beef
that blood is thicker than water deeper than sea
I’m sorry I couldn’t see couldn’t understand couldn’t think
i was blinded by my reality now I pause and let the gravity of me decisions sink
cause I turned my back on my sister because of a grudge
if there is a god then she is chilling above
I wish I could just give you a hug
Cause I never did
truth be told you raised me as a kid
I just sit playing with what ifs
But time doesn’t rewind and ain’t that a b****
Mom and dad are broken bits just plain sick
Selfish is what you did but selfish of me to point this finger
I just let my thoughts simmer and these emotions linger
I wish I could tell you I became bigger that with your death I became more
but instead I feel I have not to live for
But I know I am fortunate but I just can’t cope with this
Cause hope is s*** and my pain just grows
And no matter how much you learn you could never know
cause don’t ever assume you know my pain
cause yours is not the same
cause pain can’t be compared and life it’s just not fair
and my life I just don’t care
spend my time looking out my window at the stars I stare
Thinking about other worlds and other things I wait to hear my fat lady sing
and here’s a lesson to be learned from suicide
when you choose to take your own life and die you don’t die by yourself
instead you take a piece of everyone’s soul that every cared
and part of their life dies with you there
Memories of her are but old
And when she passed my heart broke turned frozen cold
Happiness lost beneath the snow no peace to hold
Buried I tried to reach for hope
And when I did my hand came back old
Crippled and mangled like a noose
Around her neck that strangles
I became a stranger mind lost in its own
Empty barren and alone
Moans of pain washed down by bitter woes
Dumbfounded to what ensues
Lost I have no purpose, no pursuit
And I’m confused, I don’t know what to do
Because this grief, this pain it just consumes
Till you’re separated from the world in a locked room
You hope for change to come soon but it’s not safe to presume
Cause things just don’t happen-no
in this world you reap what you sow
if I could go back I would just want you to know
that I’m your bro and I’d be there for you no matter the beef
that blood is thicker than water deeper than sea
I’m sorry I couldn’t see couldn’t understand couldn’t think
i was blinded by my reality now I pause and let the gravity of me decisions sink
cause I turned my back on my sister because of a grudge
if there is a god then she is chilling above
I wish I could just give you a hug
Cause I never did
truth be told you raised me as a kid
I just sit playing with what ifs
But time doesn’t rewind and ain’t that a b****
Mom and dad are broken bits just plain sick
Selfish is what you did but selfish of me to point this finger
I just let my thoughts simmer and these emotions linger
I wish I could tell you I became bigger that with your death I became more
but instead I feel I have not to live for
But I know I am fortunate but I just can’t cope with this
Cause hope is s*** and my pain just grows
And no matter how much you learn you could never know
cause don’t ever assume you know my pain
cause yours is not the same
cause pain can’t be compared and life it’s just not fair
and my life I just don’t care
spend my time looking out my window at the stars I stare
Thinking about other worlds and other things I wait to hear my fat lady sing
and here’s a lesson to be learned from suicide
when you choose to take your own life and die you don’t die by yourself
instead you take a piece of everyone’s soul that every cared
and part of their life dies with you there
