I was going to find out about killing myself but saw this and thought id try here first. This is my second time on the forums. my depression this time round is oh soo much deeper. its real this time. last time i was just down becuase i lacked direction and hope. i found it in my guardian angel and she saved my life.
heres the main issue.
22 in 2 weeks and ive only ever had 1 girlfriend. 1 girlfriend...im not talking serious relationship. im talking me being with a woman. 7 years of secondary school, 2 years of college and 6 years of work. 1 girlfriend. no one is interested at all...ever. its causing me huge huge problems with myself. im having dowstairs problems with staying up. im getting really confused about being socialy accepted around friends and ive lost all self confidence and direction. im not a bad person. im a gentleman. i do everything for people at the drop of a hat. im always trying to be kind and happy.
this is my picture: <mod edit: bunny - no personal picture please>
i keep myself clean, i dont have BO, im polite, well bought up and nice. i have a nice house and a nice big clean car.
what the meep is wrong with me?!?
ok ... so ive cheered up a bit since starting this post (listening to music) but still the problem will be back in the morning...
i watch drunken male chavs who look like they swam in the grease jar leer and grope women and end up going home with someone. My housemate...she comes home with a differnt on the dole almost hobo bloke every week and i sit there having to listen to them at it in the room accross from me. its been a year and 5 months since my 1 girlfriend.
where am i going wrong? whats wrong with me? why doesnt anyone like me?
its driving me now to think of death :unsure:
*edit...midnight.....unhappy again...going to bed....my friends are starting to hate me...they told me this weekend they were unconfterble with me being around. i only have 2 friends...to find out they hate me too...after 6 months of being friends to find out they dont actually like me.......im all alone.....................suddenly that kitchen knife downstairs seems an option
heres the main issue.
22 in 2 weeks and ive only ever had 1 girlfriend. 1 girlfriend...im not talking serious relationship. im talking me being with a woman. 7 years of secondary school, 2 years of college and 6 years of work. 1 girlfriend. no one is interested at all...ever. its causing me huge huge problems with myself. im having dowstairs problems with staying up. im getting really confused about being socialy accepted around friends and ive lost all self confidence and direction. im not a bad person. im a gentleman. i do everything for people at the drop of a hat. im always trying to be kind and happy.
this is my picture: <mod edit: bunny - no personal picture please>
i keep myself clean, i dont have BO, im polite, well bought up and nice. i have a nice house and a nice big clean car.
what the meep is wrong with me?!?
ok ... so ive cheered up a bit since starting this post (listening to music) but still the problem will be back in the morning...
i watch drunken male chavs who look like they swam in the grease jar leer and grope women and end up going home with someone. My housemate...she comes home with a differnt on the dole almost hobo bloke every week and i sit there having to listen to them at it in the room accross from me. its been a year and 5 months since my 1 girlfriend.
where am i going wrong? whats wrong with me? why doesnt anyone like me?
its driving me now to think of death :unsure:
*edit...midnight.....unhappy again...going to bed....my friends are starting to hate me...they told me this weekend they were unconfterble with me being around. i only have 2 friends...to find out they hate me too...after 6 months of being friends to find out they dont actually like me.......im all alone.....................suddenly that kitchen knife downstairs seems an option
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