I have found that therapy, medications, and hospitalization are temporary solutions to a permanent problem. I'm tired of being insulted by the phrase we all hear too often. It's on so many web sites that promise hope, and so many people are too flippant, in my opinion, to hand it out as a catch all phrase that provides any insight: "suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" - this is crap, nonsense, and false. The problem, for me, is permanent so far, and likely to be so in the future. I hate being mislead and insulted by this. Perhaps I don't want a solution - but then, isn't that part of the problem? Also, how do I instruct people who insist on wishing me happy birthday that it's one of the most destructive things they can do? I've explained my position on the matter to family and friends, but to no avail. I no longer tell new acquaintances my birthdate. Even this forum sent me a collective message. Please don't do that - it triggers strong suicidal ideation. This is inappropriate. Friends tell me I should get over it. How do I explain to them to please not discuss the topic without revealing why? I'm not sure I really want any answers, I'm just venting. I don't have anywhere else to vent. Also, are the suicide hotlines listed elsewhere obliged to try and assist in rescuing someone who the staff believes is in imminent danger of suicide? It would be preferable for me to find a service that I could contact anonymously just to talk. Again, I'm not looking for a solution so much as a place to be heard. I'm looking for a service that is willing to figuratively "hold my hand" and keep me company, no matter what state or condition I'm in when I call. I'm not looking for someone to come and help me. I don't want to put my friends who know me in a compromizing situation where they feel the necessity to intervene, and I'm not looking for emergency staff to come to my location. That would be very detrimental. <Mod edit - against guidelines> Peace.