I am about to go out tonight with my boyfriend, firstly dropping my friend and her kids off at another friends house then going out. I have yet to want to do all those things, crazy right? These are the sort of things that are supposed to bring me joy- and at times do.
I am struggling to come to terms with having a purpose- and I know that it will be a on going thing.
I seriously feel like binge eating, I have so much anger right now and I just want to feel a little lighter before I go out but there is just no time. I should really just open my mouth and talk to the two people that care so much for me, but I have a habit of just not saying anything at all. My mind believes that festering it all inside is super healthy- which it is not.
why must my mind be so damaged and dislocated.....???!!!!
and i am rambling for some reason..... ahhh don't even wanna finish this thread because my mind is being just too negative sorry xo
I am struggling to come to terms with having a purpose- and I know that it will be a on going thing.
I seriously feel like binge eating, I have so much anger right now and I just want to feel a little lighter before I go out but there is just no time. I should really just open my mouth and talk to the two people that care so much for me, but I have a habit of just not saying anything at all. My mind believes that festering it all inside is super healthy- which it is not.
why must my mind be so damaged and dislocated.....???!!!!
and i am rambling for some reason..... ahhh don't even wanna finish this thread because my mind is being just too negative sorry xo