So my mother was really sad today... Her stupid mother was very evil to her... And my mother almost cry... So i felt so bad that i almost went to bethroom and cut myself... And I even dont know why... I know its not my fault and i didnt blame myself... but still... its very strange.... have you ever felt like this? Then there is another feeling, which is very hard to describe... last 2 months, since im really depressed, i feel so strange.... All colors seems so dark, even red and green, my mind is so heavy, i feel like im druged... When i walked down the school hall i feel so different... everything seems dark and i feel like there is invincible wall around me or that the whole world and people has change....I could say that i feel half dead, that half of me is dead and only other half is in this world... Does anyone feel the same or am I the only one?