What happens when you have no faith left in humanity? When you can't see our species as having any redeeming qualities, and everything that before appeared as human goodness now just seems to be an elaborate charade, ready to be dropped at the slightest hint that each clawing, manipulative primate's self-interest won't be maximally served? What happens when everything you have done up to this point is because you believed in something, but now you believe in absolutely nothing? When you are filled with existential angst--in the precise technical sense that you are constantly aware that you could at any moment drop out of society and go live on a mountain somewhere, or drop out of life by a simple act of suicide, the means of which lie no more than two metres away from your bed? Don't really know what to do any more, I'm afraid. All the fairy tales I used to believe in are dead. Everything was a lie: love, honesty, trust, altruism, human goodness. Now there is nothing left. How am I supposed to want to keep going?