im struggling to see anything. cant find reasons anymore. im not about to do anything but want to. i just read a post that got me thinking. hit me pretty badly tho i know is shouldnt have. i cant face things. cant face being in chat tho i want to be, cant face dealing with things. doing anything.
im constantly tired, feeling sick. its making me ill.
im scared to go back to work for some reason - i dont know why. in 4 days my boss wont be there for quite a while - he is the only one there that really knows me. so i have to fake what i am for a while.
all i want is a hug - thats bad cos it wont change anything but i just need physical presence - but got none.
im feeling really lost too. im sat here but in my mind iknow i shouldnt be. i should be far away and i dont know why. dont understand anything.
i want to cry but i cant and wont.
im really cold to and dont know why. god im all over the place. feeling really panicy. i know this post makes no sence. im sorry
Im really sorry for writing crap
xxx
im constantly tired, feeling sick. its making me ill.
im scared to go back to work for some reason - i dont know why. in 4 days my boss wont be there for quite a while - he is the only one there that really knows me. so i have to fake what i am for a while.
all i want is a hug - thats bad cos it wont change anything but i just need physical presence - but got none.
im feeling really lost too. im sat here but in my mind iknow i shouldnt be. i should be far away and i dont know why. dont understand anything.
i want to cry but i cant and wont.
im really cold to and dont know why. god im all over the place. feeling really panicy. i know this post makes no sence. im sorry
Im really sorry for writing crap
xxx