I'd rather not go into all my details but my friends on here know my past. Well the present seems to want to make my life even worse.
In this war I have won a few battles but this last one is going to be the last. Depression's ally on this one is way to big. A huge bill owed to the gov't for a mistake THEY made has reared it's ugly head. I have received no notice of this but I got told by the owner of my company on Friday that 15% of each paycheck will be taken! I can't afford this, I'm just barely squeaking by as it is. Some idiot at work said sell my car, I said, "STFU!" The amount owed is more than it is worth. Too early to take a loan out on the house I believe. Nothing of monetary value to sell. I can reduce bills somewhat but it's still not enough. And I sure as hell am not getting rid of my dog. At the rate they want me to pay it will take roughly 1.5 years to pay off the debt. I can't do it.
I have to say mother nature gave me the issues I had as baby 'cuz I was meant to die, unfortunately modern medicine kept me alive. And I have had to suffer all along the way. Then she tried again after high school, modern medicine again prevailed at the age of 28, that time I was happy. I thought maybe my life would finally be better. WOW, I was SO wrong.
Yeah, I know, think of others that care about you and how they'll feel. Well I have. How about how I feel? I feel like it's f'ing pointless. Nothing good has come from it and nothing ever will. I don't see a way around it. People at work that know the situation are asking me why I'm so depressed. Come on, put yourself in my shoes. The person that asked me was my boss, he told me recently that it's more than likely probably be just floor manager someday. Not programmer, like I should be because he's scared to have me do the first run on the machines because of my seizures. In a way I can understand but I'll even sign a waiver or something putting them at no fault if something happens. It's been 3.5 years since I've had one and this brain has way more capability than being a machine operator or floor manager.
Damn solicitors! Like I have any money to give you right now! Should have let my dog chase him away.
Soooo, I think it's just time to end the war. See how they like that. Can't get any money from a dead man in debt! :diablo:
In this war I have won a few battles but this last one is going to be the last. Depression's ally on this one is way to big. A huge bill owed to the gov't for a mistake THEY made has reared it's ugly head. I have received no notice of this but I got told by the owner of my company on Friday that 15% of each paycheck will be taken! I can't afford this, I'm just barely squeaking by as it is. Some idiot at work said sell my car, I said, "STFU!" The amount owed is more than it is worth. Too early to take a loan out on the house I believe. Nothing of monetary value to sell. I can reduce bills somewhat but it's still not enough. And I sure as hell am not getting rid of my dog. At the rate they want me to pay it will take roughly 1.5 years to pay off the debt. I can't do it.
I have to say mother nature gave me the issues I had as baby 'cuz I was meant to die, unfortunately modern medicine kept me alive. And I have had to suffer all along the way. Then she tried again after high school, modern medicine again prevailed at the age of 28, that time I was happy. I thought maybe my life would finally be better. WOW, I was SO wrong.
Yeah, I know, think of others that care about you and how they'll feel. Well I have. How about how I feel? I feel like it's f'ing pointless. Nothing good has come from it and nothing ever will. I don't see a way around it. People at work that know the situation are asking me why I'm so depressed. Come on, put yourself in my shoes. The person that asked me was my boss, he told me recently that it's more than likely probably be just floor manager someday. Not programmer, like I should be because he's scared to have me do the first run on the machines because of my seizures. In a way I can understand but I'll even sign a waiver or something putting them at no fault if something happens. It's been 3.5 years since I've had one and this brain has way more capability than being a machine operator or floor manager.
Damn solicitors! Like I have any money to give you right now! Should have let my dog chase him away.
Soooo, I think it's just time to end the war. See how they like that. Can't get any money from a dead man in debt! :diablo:
