Hey, just wanted to let you know that I decided to give therapy another try. Even though it's really expensive, it's better to lose all of my money than to stay the evil person I am.
So I wrote a mail to a therapist I thought seemed quite nice and trustworthy, but he didn't reply. I don't know why he didn't but I don't want that setback to change my mind. So I wrote another mail to another therapist, but didn't get a replay neither. I guess I'll wait for a few days. But I think it sucks. If that happens to other people as well maybe they change their mind and never get into therapy although they need it.
Also I hope that if any of them replys that I get an appointment quite soon, as my guilt is really killing me at the moment. And further I hope that I finally find a therapist that can help me and doesn't pressure me to things I can't do. We'll see how it works, so at least I have something to wait for so that I don't have the current need to kill myself.
So I wrote a mail to a therapist I thought seemed quite nice and trustworthy, but he didn't reply. I don't know why he didn't but I don't want that setback to change my mind. So I wrote another mail to another therapist, but didn't get a replay neither. I guess I'll wait for a few days. But I think it sucks. If that happens to other people as well maybe they change their mind and never get into therapy although they need it.
Also I hope that if any of them replys that I get an appointment quite soon, as my guilt is really killing me at the moment. And further I hope that I finally find a therapist that can help me and doesn't pressure me to things I can't do. We'll see how it works, so at least I have something to wait for so that I don't have the current need to kill myself.