I had a meeting with the head of the mental health department on Tuesday. I used a fake name to arrange it. He searched for it on his database and came up nothing, so he asked more questions which I refused to answer. Come Tuesday I had a panic attack and bailed and rang to re-arrange the appointment. His tone had totally changed. I realised he knew who I was. He got my phone number and ran it through the database. Stupid of me. When I got home I Googled his name. He came up as a speaker on an health industry forum called 'Seclusion and Restraint'. I do not know if he is for or against it but it scares the hell out of me. They still do this? For sure, he will not take my complaints seriously as I know there is a clear line between what he thinks is sane and insane. I was locked up, therefore I was restrained and thus am insane. I am insane. With no options left of getting help I see no other way but to kill myself. Please please please, anyone reading this, get 2nd opinions, do not be locked up and abused as I was.