Today was absolutely terrible. SOmething went on today that where I felt I let down and disappointed a lot of people and maybe angered a really good friend. Though they say that them telling me they were disappointed and my friend was angry was a joke; it really hit me hard. It made me down the whole day and made me think about my life. I kept wondering why people even befriended me, are still friends with me and have not alienated me yet? It also made me think what reason have I got to keep on living? Lastly, will I ever find the person for me considering that I am gay but can't be open with my friends and family because it might cause them to leave me.