Yeah ok, no brainer that combining those threee types of meds could zombie you out due to their CNS depressant effects. Having said that, would it be worth you considering (after talking with your medic team of course) about combining all three med types? I'm thinking that because they work along different pathways, you could manage the pain from various angles with the possibility of being able to go in at lower doses for all three types of meds. Cumulative effect by using a three pronged approach at lower than current doses may help to lower the chances of side effects being experienced. Who knows, might be able to take some of the load of your CNS motherboard.
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I am going to riheb in a few days and will try natural ways afterwards. Tolerance is buildimg up too fast and I am breaking ceiling with both pain killer and sedative. Appetite is down the drain. Need to get off of all this in order to avoid being bear skin and bones. I believe ya about the research. Its just at times I felt like a guinie pig considering what was done to me in the past 17 months.
That was more of an omage to years back when SF chat was traveling the world with Sir Ash Went to detox for oxycodone, completed and relapsed after 48 hours due to pain which people without PTSD and anxiety would tolerate and handle with OTC meds. I've tried, but it persisted so am back on pink tablets. Makes me sick to my stomach, filled with dissappointment and disgust at myself. Failure. Hard to find reason to go on.
Im noticing that of I fall asleep after I take my medication and fall asleep, I am waking up just in time when either duration of action of it is reached or body digested it to the point of half life. Today I am callong another pain clinic I got referral for from my PCP on Friday as current dosing is not enoigh so hoping they will be able to help as PCP said couple of his patients reported good results. I was ready to surrender my benzos in order for him to provide stronger dose; thats when he put referral in. I've tried detox two times already to see if I am able to libe without opiate meds but after only few days of being off of them pain returns and cant be helpped much with paracetamol, aspirin and muscle relaxer which my GI can tolerate well to a degree with a bit of help of famotidine. Still, deep down in me, I cannot find peace that I am on polypharmacy as that was never an option I felt is healthy. So on a mental side am still feeling bad about it, looking back with envy at my medications free life and other people who go about life without aid of mesications.
This past Friday had phone convo with my dear friend whom I've known for over 30 years and she gets it <mod edit> Other friend last night when he stopped by when I told him that if I could get my hands on heroin or fent I'd shoot it right now even though I've never did it before. I guess in this stunted life I lived so far ageing and its ugly paws never occured to me until they started popping up to bother me.
This past Friday had phone convo with my dear friend whom I've known for over 30 years and she gets it <mod edit> Other friend last night when he stopped by when I told him that if I could get my hands on heroin or fent I'd shoot it right now even though I've never did it before. I guess in this stunted life I lived so far ageing and its ugly paws never occured to me until they started popping up to bother me.
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Things are what they are, so yes and no. I believe it aboit perspective I have regarding these earthly experiences. So, some things have chance to get better, other forever stay crap. But to be honest I am too tired mentally and physically so will let this body-mind take its course and be done with it.
As someone with lots of anger and rage stored in my body I liked a line from a series I am currently watching, New Amsterdam, when a lady who was damaged for life by doctors says something like: "I am going to hire the most blood thirsty lawyers and send your hospital to the Stone Age".
Remember, over two decades, just on a cusp of globalization when one of my co-workers, with whom I jammed a few times at his place, became hostile towards me and a couple of other Bosnians because his uncle lost his job which was shiftted to some country abroad and when he drew the last straw I came to my supervisor, after repeated complaints in the past, telling her that they have until 8 am tomorrow to get rid of him or I am leaving and will burn the place to ashes legally with harassment lawsuits.
Early today Z. texted me that he does not need money but needs me to use my Uber app and take him home cause he got stuck downtown and bus stopped running for a night. All this after I sent him hundred bucks to take a train home from a second rehab he was dropped off but following day discharged him because his ins. company would not pay another 30 days at that facility. So felt pretty okay to help him out but last night I was thinking about the convoluted logic he presented, it is not about money but just pay for my Uber using your app, hahaha. Anyhow I said no. Also said no today when he texted he found rehab for both of us. I am noticing that people close to me actually do not listen what I am saying because they are coming back like broken records with advices and proposals which I have alredy tried. I have about the only two people who are not doing that, my best friend and my psychotherapist.
My insurance company said they are working on getting me emotional support animal (dog) and are supposed to email me details tomorrow so I can go over them and proceed from there.
Yesterday I found fentanil testing strips in a local pharmacy if I come to the point to have buy painkillers on the street. Today so far I am on the schedule and will need to cut back a bit in the next few days in order to not run out of script early. I made a decision to start taking low doses of ibuprofen along paracetamol in between oxycodone so hopefully all will go well and am being referred to a different pain clinic by my PCP who is currently prescribing oxy in hopes that they might help me better since he does not want to increase my dose.
I had to stop blogging on a platform I have been using for decades as it is based in my home country and despite me loving in general my people, they can be judgmental and non-understanding so am moving away as I am done being broken record myself as well.
Remember, over two decades, just on a cusp of globalization when one of my co-workers, with whom I jammed a few times at his place, became hostile towards me and a couple of other Bosnians because his uncle lost his job which was shiftted to some country abroad and when he drew the last straw I came to my supervisor, after repeated complaints in the past, telling her that they have until 8 am tomorrow to get rid of him or I am leaving and will burn the place to ashes legally with harassment lawsuits.
Early today Z. texted me that he does not need money but needs me to use my Uber app and take him home cause he got stuck downtown and bus stopped running for a night. All this after I sent him hundred bucks to take a train home from a second rehab he was dropped off but following day discharged him because his ins. company would not pay another 30 days at that facility. So felt pretty okay to help him out but last night I was thinking about the convoluted logic he presented, it is not about money but just pay for my Uber using your app, hahaha. Anyhow I said no. Also said no today when he texted he found rehab for both of us. I am noticing that people close to me actually do not listen what I am saying because they are coming back like broken records with advices and proposals which I have alredy tried. I have about the only two people who are not doing that, my best friend and my psychotherapist.
My insurance company said they are working on getting me emotional support animal (dog) and are supposed to email me details tomorrow so I can go over them and proceed from there.
Yesterday I found fentanil testing strips in a local pharmacy if I come to the point to have buy painkillers on the street. Today so far I am on the schedule and will need to cut back a bit in the next few days in order to not run out of script early. I made a decision to start taking low doses of ibuprofen along paracetamol in between oxycodone so hopefully all will go well and am being referred to a different pain clinic by my PCP who is currently prescribing oxy in hopes that they might help me better since he does not want to increase my dose.
I had to stop blogging on a platform I have been using for decades as it is based in my home country and despite me loving in general my people, they can be judgmental and non-understanding so am moving away as I am done being broken record myself as well.
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Seems like end is approaching. I finalky figured out why everything is aching upon waking up. During sleep my oxygen falls to 80% and cells are nit getting enough oxygen hence muscle pains and headaches. I've got no support system to resolve it. It's uncomfortable and I do not have enough painkillers nor am now able to drive couple of hours to a different city to get some street medicine and my connection is off to rehab in two days. Send a text to one of friends if he would drive me but no reply yet.