Dear A,
I loved you so much... I wish I had the courage to love you when you were alive.
In another life, we'll find each other, and I'll love you as passionately as you deserved. I'll love you as if I knew in one moment it could all be taken away.
I'll love you so much that you'll have the courage to love me as fully as possible. And in the quiet moments, I'll whisper to you softly that I am yours. And you'll never doubt for a second that I am.
You'll know that I am whole, not half empty and translucent like a ghost tethered to another world as I am now. You'll be able to touch me and feel me and know that I am here for you.
We'll challenge each other, and make each other angry and sad and desperate, but it will be okay because we are kindred spirits and that's what kindred spirits do.
And your parents will be good to you....you'll have a wonderfully adoring family, you'll know exactly who you are and where you're going. And I'll be happy because that's all I ever wanted for you; a good life, with love surrounding you, practically suffocating you. You'll mock those around you for being overbearing, but secretly you'll be grateful for it.
And even though, most of the time I want to die... I will wish for another life, another life just so I can be with you and do it right this time.
X.
I loved you so much... I wish I had the courage to love you when you were alive.
In another life, we'll find each other, and I'll love you as passionately as you deserved. I'll love you as if I knew in one moment it could all be taken away.
I'll love you so much that you'll have the courage to love me as fully as possible. And in the quiet moments, I'll whisper to you softly that I am yours. And you'll never doubt for a second that I am.
You'll know that I am whole, not half empty and translucent like a ghost tethered to another world as I am now. You'll be able to touch me and feel me and know that I am here for you.
We'll challenge each other, and make each other angry and sad and desperate, but it will be okay because we are kindred spirits and that's what kindred spirits do.
And your parents will be good to you....you'll have a wonderfully adoring family, you'll know exactly who you are and where you're going. And I'll be happy because that's all I ever wanted for you; a good life, with love surrounding you, practically suffocating you. You'll mock those around you for being overbearing, but secretly you'll be grateful for it.
And even though, most of the time I want to die... I will wish for another life, another life just so I can be with you and do it right this time.
X.
