Empathy Only too much pressure

[Luthien Tinuviel]

i self harmed last night. i feel sick because it actually does feel better when i do it the way i did.
i have a proficiency exam t his semester but i still am recovering from pneumonia.
i contacted the professor and my advisor and they didnt respond about anything but maybe i wasnt clear.
i have a feeling they want to wait it out but i dont know.
also as some of you know i work under my sister and something happened at work and i was confused.
she wanted an explanation but i didnt remember because i havent really been well still. i still had a fever last night. i have an autoimmune condition and think that its upset or something.
it led to us not talking and she wasnt compassionate or understanding.
i also consulted with a new singing teacher, which will help me with my exam. my other teacher had a baby. she thinks i need to get scoped. i just think its a breath issue.
so all that stuff isnt a big deal but i feel lilke things leading up to now i have a lot of pressure and no rest. i wish i didnt exist. im finishing my degree later than normal and i dont feel im worth it.

 

[MisterBGone]

Try not to think anything of it, the self harming incident. Just recognize it for what it is, and let it go...
I would try writing to your professor & advisor again, and apologize, if you weren't able to communicate clearly enough
with what you really meant. And see if you can, try again~ in order to, make sure (be sure) that you are understood.
And so that anything that might be missed, is forgiven. Hopefully, they may need a Dr.'s note? I don't know. . .
Can you just shoot straight with your Sister, or does that (or will it) not work?
Does she prefer to speak in riddles, or give you, the "silent treatment" in order to get her message across?
If not, then I'd just look to seek clarification from this misunderstanding (potential) also, or as well^(.
I'd just explain the situation with her (that you haven't been well, and the reasons why for this)
then look to see what she says. Perhaps answer her question, if you can...
On the health issue, it all depends on how procative you want to be with it.
Depends, I guess, on you--& the potential consequences, of it going each way, in terms of the results.
As long as, or so long as, you are happy with that (outcome of your decision), then I'd say all is fine~
I'd tell others to nip it in the bud. What would I do myself? Perhaps another matter. . .
Lots of folks graduate later than anticipated or originally expected. It's not a big deal at all.
What matters most, is that you get what you can out of your studies, and your degree
within the given struggles or obstacles & challenges that are presented to you
during that time period, or frame. And!
Of course you're worth it~*>