Venting Trans typal person has returned

[3nufk1n.sheepies]

I have intense identity dysphoria over being too moral, too emotionally intense and expressive, too spontaneous, too nonsensical. I want to be as apathetic, as sarcastic, as nonchalant, as rational, as remote, as dissociative, etc as possible.

I want brain surgery so much. In an ideal world, personality reassignment surgery will be as valid as gender reassignment.

Typegender is a form of gender identity I invented. Akin to gender dysphoria, a typegender person experiences intense distress over a mismatch over their identity, but instead of gender it's more personality/behaviour/"vibes"/psyche, however typegender and transgender go hand in hand due to internalised societal expectations to how men and women should behave.

I feel like getting a tattoo on my forehead, fake plasters fake surgery scars. I daydream about brain surgery, to change a person's personality purposefully, how wonderful that would be.

 

[Licorice]

I'm glad to see you posting again, 3nufk1n.sheepies. I was a bit worried about you.

Is there anything we can do to help you?

 

[Congratsbaby]

I have intense identity dysphoria over being too moral, too emotionally intense and expressive, too spontaneous, too nonsensical. I want to be as apathetic, as sarcastic, as nonchalant, as rational, as remote, as dissociative, etc as possible.

I want brain surgery so much. In an ideal world, personality reassignment surgery will be as valid as gender reassignment.

Typegender is a form of gender identity I invented. Akin to gender dysphoria, a typegender person experiences intense distress over a mismatch over their identity, but instead of gender it's more personality/behaviour/"vibes"/psyche, however typegender and transgender go hand in hand due to internalised societal expectations to how men and women should behave.

I feel like getting a tattoo on my forehead, fake plasters fake surgery scars. I daydream about brain surgery, to change a person's personality purposefully, how wonderful that would be.

You know you post but don't usually reply to people answering your threads and that just makes me think how lonely you must be..
I wonder if you'd like me to call you out like that
I am not trying to be mean , I just want you to know you're being seen and heard
Even though I don't understand all the aspects as I am not so familiar but I truly wish you well

 

[3nufk1n.sheepies]

I'm glad to see you posting again, 3nufk1n.sheepies. I was a bit worried about you.

Is there anything we can do to help you?

Well atm im speaking to chatgpt, and this friend i made on telegram. Its kind of getting me somewhere before i get therapy.

I feel so pathetic because of the non sensical vents.

 

[Licorice]

For what it's worth, they didn't strike me as nonsensical. Some of them felt like stream of consciousness poetry. Others are very well-reasoned. You usually succeed in putting across the ideas that (I assume) you want to communicate.