trouble coping with memories of an ex. (tw)

[Luthien Tinuviel]

my mom sold her car recently. it was the same exact car model my ex had.

i said that i was glad she sold it.
but she teased me about my ex and pinched my hips
but i think he assaulted me in his car a lot.
our first kiss was him telling me he would break up with me if i didnt kiss him. so it led to that.

the worst two times in his car was when i said we s hould go home because the shop was closed . we had got coffee and donuts from there.
but he said we are staying and kissed me and reached up my skirt.

and another time similar i was very hot i couldnt breathe when he was on me and i took off my sweaer. he started touching me again and said that i wanted it cos i took off my sweater but i really was just overheated.
he had insisted that i wanted stuff cos i took off my sweater that time. i hadnt. he never raped me though


that situation with my mom brought this all up for me.

 

[may71]

but i think he assaulted me in his car a lot

It was definitely assault.

he never raped me though

I'm glad it never went that far, but it was still bad.

but she teased me about my ex and pinched my hips

I don't know why your mom thinks it's ok to do stuff like this. It doesn't sound like you want her to, but she just feels at liberty to violate any kind of reasonable personal boundaries.

 

[Luthien Tinuviel]

thank you. :'( its weird for me that this just come up now :/

 

[may71]

thank you

You're welcome

its weird for me that this just come up now :/

Why is that?

 

[Luthien Tinuviel]

You're welcome


Why is that?

i should be over it. it was awhile ago

 

[may71]

i should be over it. it was awhile ago

I don't think that's fair. Time doesn't necessarily automatically work things out.