My goal was and still is to become a chef. I've had a passion for cooking for a long time now. Even when I post homemade food on facebook, I get positive feedback. The problem, as with most every other hobby/activity, is that my depression gets the best of me. My lack of motivations shows. And it's because of my depression that even having a job (currently unemployed) is difficult. I wish I had that motivation back. I wish I could concentrate and be more creative. I've been struggling with severe depression for years now. I'm currently trying to grow basil herbs. As you can imagine though, even that is proving to be a challenge. Funny however, I've been watching a ton of Hells Kitchen, Kitchen Nightmares, etc. Yeh, like that helps my stress. But yeh, it is a huge struggle with depression vs favorite hobby.