well i thought it was going great for me for the past 3 months but i guess i was wrong it been awhile since i ranted but i dont know anymore.... I mean dang it how could he have done that to me i me hell i trusted him and he did this kind of crap to me maybe i derserve it...
I came so freaking close to cut but i didn't cause i didn't have anything to use and now i feel like crap, maybe i was right people come to me forever thing and when there done and feel better they leave me outside in the cold with my problem to rot in the ground.. Its hard maybe i trust people to easy but thats just me and once i get to close i just burn up. Maybe i just need to stop trusting people, but i can't do that...maybe i get what i get...he was right and it doesn't really help alot cause i see him everyday at work.. maybe i just vanish for a couple days... :cry: i wanna hurt myself so fucking bad but i dont hurt people who i love...i should just suffer or something...:cry:
I came so freaking close to cut but i didn't cause i didn't have anything to use and now i feel like crap, maybe i was right people come to me forever thing and when there done and feel better they leave me outside in the cold with my problem to rot in the ground.. Its hard maybe i trust people to easy but thats just me and once i get to close i just burn up. Maybe i just need to stop trusting people, but i can't do that...maybe i get what i get...he was right and it doesn't really help alot cause i see him everyday at work.. maybe i just vanish for a couple days... :cry: i wanna hurt myself so fucking bad but i dont hurt people who i love...i should just suffer or something...:cry: