depression is the absolute worst. i've been depressed since january, but it seems so much longer. things will start to look up for me, but then i just get sucked back into this horrible depression, it's like a never-ending cycle. i can't stand it anymore, i want more than anything to be happy again and get rid of this depression, but i can't.. it doesn't go away. and i get so hopeful everytime i start to become happy again, but it never lasts more then a day or two.. :sad: i really can't deal with this constant sadness anymore..