I really, really want to leave this world now. I neglected my cat and now he is gone. My kids cat, my cat. Now I am dead inside. I have killed myself by this deed. Now I'm stuck here, cuz I have kids. I really, really want to DIE. He was a gift sent to me by God and I destroyed him. I am evil. Am I the Devils pawn? How could this happen? How could I allow it to happen? How does one continue on after neglecting a life? I am the lowest of the low, and I should be dead. I shouldn't be allowed to breath anymore. How do I go on?