Hello SF❤️
I am currently studying at a highschool? Not sure what to call it, in my language it is called something different, but to be more clear I am 18 years old.
My time at this school ends soon. Like pretty soon, in june. After that I am planning on studying at another school, for higher education that prepares me for whatever work I pick . I guess you can just call it university.
As I live in a smaller city with no universities here, I have to move to another city or travel for 1h+ back and forth, every day of the week.
I have developed pretty severe fear of speaking in class and in general I believe, but I think it also extends to some form of social anxiety lately. This developed out of nowhere, and has honestly made my life so freaking horrible and my anxiety has gotten so so so bad because of it. I am not diagnosed, but have gotten some help for it. At my current school, I do not have any close friends. Everybody is already in their friend groups and I never got into one during these three years. I am not used to this and have had a close friend group before, that no longer exists because we all went to different schools.
I kind of have one friend left, but her and me don’t hang out almost at all any more, she has a boyfriend that she hangs with all the time, and after summer wants to study in another country. In short, I will lose the only person I occassionally hang out with.
Now to the problem that has bothered me for a long while:
Since I have this social anxiety problem, me and my family thought that it would be best for me if I didn’t go to school physically, but instead did everything through distance learning through the computer because it is very much possible and increasingly popular for students in my country and is the ”same” as being in school and taking classes physically at the school.
As all my friends (the ones I had left) will be gone, and I will spend almost all my time studying at home which for sure is more comfortable for me (mentally)at this point in time, I am so so depressed and scared of the thought of being lonely. I will have my family and siblings, but no friends. That is my worst fear right now and I do not know what to do.
I thought of maybe switching places to study at, like going to cafes or a library to study, but I am still so scared of being alone, even though I am pretty alone right now too..
Moving elsewhere to study at a school is possible, but will cost me much and I am not yet ready for such a big change in my life as it is in only about 6 months!!!
Does anybody have any tips on feeling less lonely in my situation? The education is only for 3 years so the loneliness is not permanent,
but it will still potentially affect me very much.
It is the only thing I can think of right now. I feel so depressed about it.
I am thankful for any advice❤️
I am currently studying at a highschool? Not sure what to call it, in my language it is called something different, but to be more clear I am 18 years old.
My time at this school ends soon. Like pretty soon, in june. After that I am planning on studying at another school, for higher education that prepares me for whatever work I pick . I guess you can just call it university.
As I live in a smaller city with no universities here, I have to move to another city or travel for 1h+ back and forth, every day of the week.
I have developed pretty severe fear of speaking in class and in general I believe, but I think it also extends to some form of social anxiety lately. This developed out of nowhere, and has honestly made my life so freaking horrible and my anxiety has gotten so so so bad because of it. I am not diagnosed, but have gotten some help for it. At my current school, I do not have any close friends. Everybody is already in their friend groups and I never got into one during these three years. I am not used to this and have had a close friend group before, that no longer exists because we all went to different schools.
I kind of have one friend left, but her and me don’t hang out almost at all any more, she has a boyfriend that she hangs with all the time, and after summer wants to study in another country. In short, I will lose the only person I occassionally hang out with.
Now to the problem that has bothered me for a long while:
Since I have this social anxiety problem, me and my family thought that it would be best for me if I didn’t go to school physically, but instead did everything through distance learning through the computer because it is very much possible and increasingly popular for students in my country and is the ”same” as being in school and taking classes physically at the school.
As all my friends (the ones I had left) will be gone, and I will spend almost all my time studying at home which for sure is more comfortable for me (mentally)at this point in time, I am so so depressed and scared of the thought of being lonely. I will have my family and siblings, but no friends. That is my worst fear right now and I do not know what to do.
I thought of maybe switching places to study at, like going to cafes or a library to study, but I am still so scared of being alone, even though I am pretty alone right now too..
Moving elsewhere to study at a school is possible, but will cost me much and I am not yet ready for such a big change in my life as it is in only about 6 months!!!
Does anybody have any tips on feeling less lonely in my situation? The education is only for 3 years so the loneliness is not permanent,
but it will still potentially affect me very much.
It is the only thing I can think of right now. I feel so depressed about it.
I am thankful for any advice❤️
