Empathy Only very triggering ambulance situation

[3nufk1n.sheepies]

i had a weed panic attack but by the time the ambulance arrived it was less pronounced.
the ambulance people acted weirder than what ive ever seen.
one insisted that i talk to him and make eye contact and stare at him- that hurt because i dont want to be perceived as very extravert
and the two females also asked me loads of questions without my permission including where my bedroom was. that also hurt because it felt infantilising.
it also felt dramatic when after blood pressuee and heart rate I went "is that it?"
and they all misgendered me and used my birth name

i strive to avoid humans as much as possible yet THIS happens?

and now the neighbourhood will harrass me even more. smell of weed followed by an ambulance? how pathetic
i do NOT wanrt to be dramatic and easily panicked but i am 😭😭😭😭😭

i wish i was a twink that would just withdraw and dissociate.
not a fat drama queen.

 

[3nufk1n.sheepies]

thanks to traumatic incidents like this, everyone views me as being dramatic for attention from others, not to vent genuine feelings 💔

 

[may71]

I'm sorry this happened.

not to vent genuine feelings 💔

I think you're venting genuine feelings. It's ok.

Hugs 3nuf

 

[Gabby girl]

best thing to do is try to let them bother you. i sorta know that picked on feeling (i drive a imaginary bus to help with anxiety so i get started at and mocked a lot) the key is to not let them show it bothers you. the less you seem interested the less it happens. if you want to keep us updated on the situation we are here and happy to listen and advise. in terms of the ambulance situation i know your feelings are genuine they take for darn ever to respond to a emergency nowadays so its on them. if it would have been worse or a full on heart attack for example they wouldnt have made it. so glad your physically doing okay and we are here for you no matter what the issue is. if you drop us a message we will be there as fast as we can.