Walking around and trying to stop pressing the self-destruction button.

[Unknown_111]

Today, I was really down and just stayed in bed all day. I was so down but I got up tonight and decided to help someone in need. I bought two fast meals to a homeless couple who were grateful and a wine bar bouncer came shook my hand and said thank you so much. I turned round and told him thank you but it's better than spending $50 dollars in some fancy wine bar whilst others starve on the street. The bouncer was speechless. Also I gave someone $30 dollars who could have bed and breakfast for three nights. The person was so happy that the unhappy look turned into the biggest smile ever. That was a nice feeling making someone's day and ensuring they were safe.

 

[Unknown_111]

Today I made a difference to someone's life. A homeless person was not happy as he wanted $15 so I gave $130 dollars and he unhappy face turned into a smile. He stated that something like this never happens to him. I stated when he back on his feet he will return the favour. I gave $50 dollars to another person and he broke down and cried as he never expected that. I told him not worry and just to look after himself. He was so happy as he just wanted someone to believe him.

 

[WildCherry]

Unknown, that's awesome, you're really making a difference and helping people. :hug:

 

[Unknown_111]

I'm crashing daily in trying to keep this promise but I'm determined to live my life. Each day gets hard but I'm tired today.

 

[WildCherry]

I know you're struggling, just want you to know I care. :hug:

 

[Unknown_111]

Today I am struggling but helped someone by giving them $20 dollars. That cheered me up until later but then things took a turn where someone thought it was to upset me. I trying to keep composed and hoping the day will pass without any further events I am so down but I will survive some how.

 

[ChestnutMay]

You are such a good, strong person, Unknown_111. You help people in this forum every day with your posts and you're out in real life making a huge difference to people in desperate situations. I know you have regrets for the past, but I hope you realize that everything you are doing now shows you are solid gold at the core.

 

[Unknown_111]

ChestnutMay thank you for your kind words. I want to show people whatever struggle or crisis you are going through, you need to find internal determination to live life. Life is important and everyday I breakdown but I survive some how. I drag myself from the floor and survive another day. This site saved my life last year. I will forever be grateful for that and will helps others who need help. Helping each other is important and It's me comfort that I'm helping others in the world. After all, life is important and we are one human race. It's does not matter what gender, size, sexual orientation, colour or other factors we are. Helping each other breaks down barriers.

 

[Unknown_111]

I met this poor man today who had no breakfast and I brought him breakfast so he had a meal today. He appreciated and that a nice gesture in return.

 

[Petal]

I met this poor man today who had no breakfast and I brought him breakfast so he had a meal today. He appreciated and that a nice gesture in return.

That was very kind of you. good on you my dear.

 

[Unknown_111]

I broke down last night and nearly took my life. I called a helpline which calmed me down. I only have this promise to live for. It's not nice but I'm determined to complete this promise.

 

[Unknown_111]

I crashed today but the emotional promise has been completed today. I'm mentally freed for the first time in 16 months. I need to repeat the promise until I think I have completed my personal target. I want to thank you all for the continued support. You folk have been my rock. Now its my turn to pay back for the support over the past sixteen months by supporting others in crisis. Have gone through the works from nearly taking my life. I want to leave a legacy when you are down you can survive and rebuild your life. Suffering depression, PSTD , attempted suicide and a mental breakdown. Never ever give up on life.

 

[SDG]

Hi,

Just jumped in on this thread, but I am very glad you are feeling a little better. Hang in there, and never hesitate to reach out if you're in a dark place. If you need someone to talk to, I'll be here. Thank you for being strong. It's an encouragement to me and the rest of us.

 

[Unknown_111]

I helped a couple of homeless by buying them a meal for $8.18 dollars. I gave additional $20 dollars for them to have a meal. I met an old person who just the company of his dog and a simple $10 dollars. He was able to sleep in shelter and feed his dog. The best thing was he asked me to come have a cup of tea with him. I promised him I would.

This morning, I helped a person who was homeless and was desperate for $25 dollars. He was so down but by giving him $26 dollars he smile was priceless. From being down this morning he was happy and looking forward to happy times with dog. He walked with a smile today.

 

[Unknown_111]

Today I saw the same person with dog and he was grateful. He begging for money and as he was grateful I made his day by giving him the money for another night. I said to him that you come into this world with nothing and when you go, you go with nothing. He said that so true and the smile like yesterday was priceless.

I saw a shop thief got caught as he was desperate for food. I said let him go and I will pay for his food. The shop assistant was insistence that they will have to follow procedure. I stated that he was desperate but my words were ignored.

 

[Unknown_111]

Today, I completely broke down to my feet. The mental anguish I suffer makes me more determined to get stronger as each day goes on. I went into the local town and saw the rich folk ignoring the homeless folk again. The homeless were begging for money just to feed themselves for the night. I tried my best help these folk but there was too many of them. I walk past people who are laughing, smiling wearing fancy designer stuff whilst others beg for food. I walked and secretly helped a few by giving them $5 dollars, the graritude received was tremendous. All I asked of them was to help others. I met the young person who cried on my shoulder last time. He was grateful and asked for a couple of bucks. I gave him a few bucks but told him to stay clean. I said if he stayed clean, then I will help as much as I can. The person agreed and I will keep my end of the bargain.

It's so heart-breaking to see others forgotten by society whilst others drink and be merry. The forgotten people suffer everyday and it's not nice. I try best to help as many as I can but sometimes you can only do much. I just think if everyone did a little kind deed each day then perhaps the world would be a better day.

Thank for reading this and I truly hope you realise that life is important and no matter what struggle you face, it's important to remain strong. Staying strong is hard but together when we help another human being or animal it helps you believe that life is worth a lot. So if you see any person hurting just simple ask if they are ok.

 

[mismad]

hello. unknown_111.
Sometimes it hurts to see others do nothing about the homeless.
But the rich are working hard in some other ways that we cannot see; if we dont stick with them we might not see

 

[Unknown_111]

I broke down again yesterday but I got up again from the floor with determination and lived through another day. I broken down last night but remained calm. Each day I get stronger and stronger to live life. It's hard but I survive minute by minute and hour by hour. You have to find the inner strength to move forward whatever crisis you suffer. Please do not think you are alone as the human society we live in alot of people suffer on the inside but do not show it on the outside. Stay strong and never give into your feelings.

 

[Jackie's Strength]

Just wanted to say that I admire your strength, courage, and determination. Use it to your advantage, and you will go a long way. Please remember you are not alone.

 

[Unknown_111]

Thank you. Well I went into a town yesterday and went to a fancy bar for a drink. I saw a bunch of fake people with fake designer bags. I tried to get served but failed to do so. I walked out and gave my $20 dollars to a homeless couple. The real people were more grateful than the woman with the fake designer bag who scolded me. I told her to get real and pointed out that watch I wore was worth more than her designer bag. I told that her that wearing designer stuff does not mean anything but the richness is heartfelt and priceless. She looked clueless.