I'm fourteen and I;m pretty certain I'm schizophrenic, OCD, and ODD. My mom took me to a shrink today and it was the worst thing ever. I've been suicidal the past few weeks. I can't take it any more. I see no reason to live any more and I don't want to go back to the psychiatrist if it costs me my life. She won't let me quit and I have panic attacks every time I go past the buildings in the city where the psychiatrist works. I hate everything about it. I feel so alianated and like I'm some sort of freak. No one cares. the shrink wants to try electroshock therapy on me and my mom's fine with that. I see no reason to live any more, anyways. I'm failing school, I hardly have any friends, my mom thinks I'm psycho, I want to murder people, I have no goals in life any more, I don't care if anyone would grieve at my death because it's likely a huge weight off of their shoulders. I can't go back to the city, and I went through horrible things at the psychiatrists office. There's no way out of going other than killing myself. Which way will be less painful so that my mom won't know until morning when it's already done and over with so she can't save me?